Good Morning, Delaware County!
You know, sometimes something happens that just kicks you in the gut like no other event. You can't wrap your mind around it. You can't justify it. You can't figure it out. All you can do is go through the motions for a couple of days until you can accept it.
As we go through our normal routine, sweating over small and perceived big things, death makes no sense. Certain deaths make even less sense. Sometimes, talking about it makes it even more confusing.
Sorry, I had a story about a good friend who took his own life in 1990. The stomach won't allow it.